So... it`s some kind of a stupid idea to write in English today, but I really feel myself a little bit crazy, so I`ll let it go...
The thing I`ve been doing today lets me feel a little useful for somebody and it`s brought me a little hapiness. My boyfriend told he wanted me to knit a scarf for him, this sounds like a crazy thing to knit a stuff for a boy of 28. I really surprized, but he was seemed really to be wanting me doing that. I even emphasized he never wore a scarf, but he answered that was because of nobody had done it for him. So... let us be a little bit childish if it really makes us feel pleasant. In fact I have a little more than a week to finish a scarf and the report for my deploma to have a really good time for next two weeks which I hope we`ll spend together.
What about me today, I`m waiting for monthlies and I`ve been feeling really hungry the all day. I`ve eaten so much stuff today.... so I REALLY SHOULD HAVE a work out tomorrow!!!! And I also have missed three days of sport because of my wierd mood... BUT I did abdominal exercises at home every day, it acquits me a little...
So..... my boy is working tonight and we even don`t have a chat and I feel lonely so much because of being alone all the days, but I really know he`s doing all his best to come to me soon.
I also wanted to clear up some thoughts about my feeling alone but I`ll do it tomorrow.